Crush

I'm scared to tell you... I'm scared you won't understand. But for a long while now I've had this feeling towards you and I can't get rid of it. I guess it's what you call a crush... That doesn't exactly describe it but it will have to do for now. You pop in and out of my life so suddenly and I never have long enough to react. And the second I feel like I can open up and let you know whats going on in my head you flip the script on me. Maybe its just some type of curiosity... I guess I have these feelings because I have never got the chance to explore them. I wonder what it would be like for you to share the feelings I have. I wonder what it would be like for you to be around for more then just a few days. I wonder what it would be like to have you near me...
With the way things go... I'm preparing for you to flip the script on me. I'm waiting for you to run off again and leave me in the dust wondering what just happened. I'm really hoping you will surprise me this time and change things up... but that isn't like you.
It feels so funny to be typing all my feelings and thoughts into this blog... I should just tell you, I mean what could it hurt? I guess I don't want to ruin the chance of you sticking around... or running off and coming back... I doubt you would take the time to read all of this, but I'm not doing it so that you will stumble across it I'm doing it because its all I have left. I don't like to voice how I feel to others, especially about this kind of stuff. So blogging it is. What a shame.
Well just know... and you know who you are, I like you. I have for a long time, and I'm not sure it will change... maybe if we keep running in circles around each other it will change some day but for now it is what it is. I hope some where deep down you feel some what like I do, and I hope if you do you are more brave then I am and you actually tell me...