& just when I thought you forgot...

I think about you everyday, all the time. & I'm always wondering if you are thinking about me too. I like to think you are, it's part of what keeps me going.

Yesterday was my 19th birthday. I was on the run with my best friend all day. She did everything she could to keep me busy so that I wouldn't think about you... But the funny thing about it is all I was thinking about was you... How last year you & I were together on my birthday. How you told me "Happy Birthday" as soon as my eyes opened & how you made me breakfast in bed. I thought about how I spent forever getting ready & how you patiently waited for me. I thought about when we toured the castle & how I looked up at you and thought I was in the perfect place. I was in a castle with my prince. I thought about when we went to dinner & about the beautiful card & flowers you got me. I thought about how we curled up in bed & watched my favorite movie together until I fell asleep...
It was hard to push forward yesterday even with as many plans as I had. All I kept doing was checking my phone to see if maybe you would remember to tell me "Happy Birthday"
I checked my phone when I woke up... nothing. When we were at the nail salon...nothing. When we went out to eat...nothing. When we went shopping...nothing. When we got home & got ready to go dancing.... still nothing... Even when I was in the club, music booming, people everywhere... even when I should have been 100% distracted... I looked down at my phone just hopping you remembered... nothing. The night had ended & as I laid in my bed I tried to think of every possible excuse of why you would have forgotten my birthday... But some part of me couldn't believe you forgot. I went through today trying to forget about it & let it go but I couldn't. I finally broke down & asked you if you forgot... & just as my heart thought, you hadn't. There was a goof up between our phone connection & I didn't receive your texts... But you sent them to me tonight... & the funny thing is, is it meant more to me tonight then it would have yesterday. I knew deep down you didn't forget... I knew you were thinking of me because you were on my mind all day. You brought the light back to my eyes today. Thank you for remembering.