Could it be?

I have been hopping and praying for this day. I have held on so close to the thought of you coming back into my life. And for some crazy, wonderful reason it's happening. My friends would ask me what would happen if we ever did mend... with you so far away again...how would it work? I told them you would have to come to me this time... and now you could possibly be moving only a few hours away... this is no coincidence in my mind. I know in my heart that I'm yours. I have held on to our memories and what use to be. I couldn't / wouldn't let go and I couldn't figure out why, but I think I know now... because it really isn't over. Everything happens for a reason and if you end up moving there is a reason... and I know there is a reason greater then you and I but it would definitely mean something. The thought of seeing you again and having you close brings tears to my eyes. But for once in this past year they aren't sad tears. While these tears fall I am smiling. I refuse to get my hopes up because they would be easily shot down but I will continue to hold on, just in case.

& just when I thought you forgot...

I think about you everyday, all the time. & I'm always wondering if you are thinking about me too. I like to think you are, it's part of what keeps me going.

Yesterday was my 19th birthday. I was on the run with my best friend all day. She did everything she could to keep me busy so that I wouldn't think about you... But the funny thing about it is all I was thinking about was you... How last year you & I were together on my birthday. How you told me "Happy Birthday" as soon as my eyes opened & how you made me breakfast in bed. I thought about how I spent forever getting ready & how you patiently waited for me. I thought about when we toured the castle & how I looked up at you and thought I was in the perfect place. I was in a castle with my prince. I thought about when we went to dinner & about the beautiful card & flowers you got me. I thought about how we curled up in bed & watched my favorite movie together until I fell asleep...
It was hard to push forward yesterday even with as many plans as I had. All I kept doing was checking my phone to see if maybe you would remember to tell me "Happy Birthday"
I checked my phone when I woke up... nothing. When we were at the nail salon...nothing. When we went out to eat...nothing. When we went shopping...nothing. When we got home & got ready to go dancing.... still nothing... Even when I was in the club, music booming, people everywhere... even when I should have been 100% distracted... I looked down at my phone just hopping you remembered... nothing. The night had ended & as I laid in my bed I tried to think of every possible excuse of why you would have forgotten my birthday... But some part of me couldn't believe you forgot. I went through today trying to forget about it & let it go but I couldn't. I finally broke down & asked you if you forgot... & just as my heart thought, you hadn't. There was a goof up between our phone connection & I didn't receive your texts... But you sent them to me tonight... & the funny thing is, is it meant more to me tonight then it would have yesterday. I knew deep down you didn't forget... I knew you were thinking of me because you were on my mind all day. You brought the light back to my eyes today. Thank you for remembering.